And most important..

I want to climb to the mountains,

diving among the clouds.

When i want to lose me there,

would you come looking for me ?

 

Let’s say, you found me,

you can hear the voice, inside me ?

Enter my loneliness softly,

and end the pain ?

 

You could be the answer,

to my most difficult questions ?

The Smell, covering my soul,

The Taste, on my lips ?

 

When i returned,

you can be my reunite, at the train station ?

You can excite me,

like kids, who are waiting for the school bell ?

 

And,

most important..

 

You can love me,

more than the whole world,

more than God,

as i loved you ?

 

HRA

 

Original in Turkish:

 

Dağlara tırmanmak isterim,

Bulutların arasına dalarak.

Kaybolmak istesem oralarda,

Beni aramaya gelir misin ?

 

Diyelim ki, arayıp buldun beni,

Içimdeki sesi duyabilir misin ?

Yalnızlığıma usulca girip,

Son verebilir misin, acılarıma ?

 

En zor sorularımın,

Cevabı olabilir misin ?

Ruhumu kaplayan o koku,

Dudaklarımdaki tat olabilir misin ?

 

Geri döndüğümde,

Tren garındaki kavuşma anım olabilir misin ?

Okul zilini bekleyen çocuklar gibi,

içimi heyecan ile kaplayabilir misin ?

 

Ve..

En önemlisi,

Benim seni sevdiğim kadar,

Dünyalar kadar,

Tanrı kadar,

Beni sevebilir misin ?

 

 

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Forgive me

Dear princess,

i know, how unthankful person am i. After all the great things you show me and fights, to see me laugh again..

I was so unthankful..

I never want to hurt you in anyway, but its already happen, i am really sad about.

That wasn’t my intention !

You reach out your hands to me, but i left it empty.

All the years i fought with my destiny, health and so many disappointments, that i forget there are still other wonderful hearts..

I break your heart and can not forgive me.

I hope only, that you are not so ruthless and can forgive me.

Dont forget you’re a god, but i am a simple man.

Now i reach out my hands, my heart, my soul to you..

Let’s make peace, let’s be friends..

Its beautiful for me to have you in my life, that’s enough.

This is the greatest gift i can get.

Forgive me, forgive the melancholy men.

 

 

HRA

 

 

Heaven ?

Heaven ?

What you call heaven was your eyes, my love.

 

Hell ?

What you call hell was to live without you, my beloved.

 

Even if its the last drop of water, from the fountain,

I wish to drink in her hands, my god,

in her hands, my god.

 

If i knew.

I would be the slave to the road, you use to left me.

I would say:

,,Don’t go, this love is enough for both of us.’’

 

When i was tasting the kevser ( river in heaven ) first time on your lips,

if only, i could blow my soul to be your endless breath.

 

Even if its the last drop of water, from the fountain,

I wish to drink in her hands, my god,

in her hands, my god.

 

Come, lets get old together in the heavens garden,

lets inhale the happiness sip after sip.

 

For the sake of the greens, that dont grow again after u leave,

please come back.

Come back, so my heart can burn with the touch of your feets,

on the ground again.

 

Even if its the last drop of water, from the fountain,

I wish to drink in her hands, my god,

in her hands, my god.

 

Be the river of my thirsty heart in the desert, my love.

Be the balm for my wounds, my god.

 

Its enough my junoesque, come back,

come with your prancing white horse.

This heart can not live without you anymore,

please, end the longing to your heaven.

 

I open my hands and pray for you.

For the crown of my head, the holy lights of my eyes.

I sacrifice the whole world for your sake,

i learn to love the life, with you,

its a death to live, without you..

 

Even if its the last drop of water, from the fountain,

I wish to drink in her hands, my god,

in her hands, my god.

 

Heaven ?

What you call heaven was your eyes, my love.

 

For all unfinished loves..

 

 

HRA

 

Original in turkish:

 

Cennet,

Cennet dediğin gözlerindi ey yar.

Cehennem,

Cehennem dediğin sensizlikti ey canan.

 

Son damlası olsa da içtiğim çeşmeden suyum,

Onun ellerinden olsun ya rab,

Onun ellerinden olsun ya rab.

 

Yürüdüğün yollara köle olsaydım senin,

Gitme, bu sevda ikimize yeter deseydim.

 

Kevseri ilk kez sende tadarken,

Ruhumu üfleyip sonsuz nefesin olsaydım.

 

Son damlası olsa da içtiğim çeşmeden suyum,

Onun ellerinden olsun ya rab,

Onun ellerinden olsun ya rab.

 

Gel, bu cennet bahçesinde beraber yaşlanalım,

İçimize çekelim mutluluğu yudum, yudum.

 

Gittiğin yerde bitmeyen yeşiller hatırına,

Geri dön..

Dön ki bastığın yerlerin altında kavrulsun kalbim.

 

Son damlası olsa da içtiğim çeşmeden suyum,

Onun ellerinden olsun ya rab,

Onun ellerinden olsun ya rab.

 

 

Yüreğimin çöllerinde susuzluğuma çare ol ey sevdam,

Kanayan yaralarıma merhemin sürülsün ey mevlam.

 

Dön artık, güzeller güzeli,

Beyaz atını şahlandırarak.

Bu gönül dayanamaz sensizliğe,

Hasret bırakma beni cennetine..

 

Avucumu açtım dualar ediyorum sana,

Başımın tacı, gözümün nuruna.

Uğruna feda olsun tüm dünya,

Ben senle sevdim hayatı,

Ölmektir, sensizlik bana..

 

Son damlası olsa da içtiğim çeşmeden suyum,

Onun ellerinden olsun ya rab,

Onun ellerinden olsun ya rab.

 

Cennet.

Cennet dediğin gözlerindi ey yar.

 

Tüm yarım kalmış aşklar için..

 

HRA

 

 

Nights passes, mornings passes..

Nights passes, mornings passes.

I gave up everything, but i can’t gave up you.

 

Maybe i can keep one day the calendar.

Maybe i can stop one day the time.

Maybe, one day, i can change my destiny.

 

I see the clouds, see the sun,

I see everything in this life.

But, the human kind want to love, to be loved..

 

He want to see the heaven in this life,

not to wait the next..

 

Oh my god..

You create so wonderful things for us.

But there is not a single medicine,

to end this pain.

This unbelievable pain,

that hurts my heart, my soul.

 

I can heal my health, i can heal my wounds,

but how i can heal this pain,

what’s called love ?

 

I know.

There is no chance to heal.

 

Mornings passes, nights passes.

This pain will not pass,

not today,

not tomorrow,

it will hurt forever..

 

 

HRA

 

 

 

Tanrıdan dilek/Wish from God

Tanrıdan dilek

 

Sigaramın dumanı bugün daha acı,

dün öten kuşlar bugün sessiz.

 

Hava pusulu ama gökyüzü çok nazlı,

ağlamak istemiyor, çünkü bana bakınca acıyor.

 

Kalemin mürekkebi akmıyor,

o da mı bana kızdı acaba ?

Yeter artık, sende var huzura, bende diye fısıldıyor sanki..

 

Bu benim suçum değil.

Ruhum huzura ermiyorsa, vardır bir sebebi..

 

Hatırladın mı, bir konuşmamızda bana:

” Tanrılar göklerdedir demiştin .”

 

Semaya baktım bugün.

Shiva oradaydı, Brahman oradaydı.

Ama Vishnu’yu göremedim.

 

Oysa ondan bir dilekte bulunacaktım.

 

Ama nasıl ?

Senden seni istemek mümkün mü ?

 

English Version:

 

Wish from God

 

The taste of my cigarette is more bitter today,

the birds are silent today.

 

I look up in the air, misty weather.

But the sky dont want to cry,

its so spoiled today,

because he is more pity with me.

 

The ink of my pen does not flow.

Maybe he is angry with me, too ?

Its like he want to say:

,,Enough, enough Harun !”

 

Since years i travel with you around the world, i am tired.

Please..

Please find the peace, so i can find peace.

 

But this was not my fault.

If my soul couldn’t find peace, until now,

there is a reason.

 

Finally , thought about one of our conversations.

Did you remember ?

You said: ,, Gods are living in the sky. ”

 

I was looking to the sky.

Shiva was there, Brahman was there.

But i couldn’t see Vishnu.

 

Its sad.

Its sad, because i want to wish someone..

 

But how i can wish a god,

from god personally ?

 

HRA

I feel cold

I feel cold.

Its really hot here, but i feel cold.

You know what’s the reason ?

 

I can’t sleep.

Everybody can sleep, but i can’t.

You know what’s the reason ?

 

I feel alone.

They are walking together in love, but i can’t.

You know what’s the reason ?

 

I can’t eat.

So delicious foods around me, but i can’t eat anything.

You know what’s the reason ?

 

I can’t see.

Daylight is shining here, but i see dark everywhere.

You know what’s the reason ?

 

 

I am dying, but its so painful.

You know what’s the reason ?

No answer ?

I know.

Because i dont lie down in your arms, my LOVE !

 

 

HRA

 

 

 

Do you hear the violin ?

Do you hear the violin ?

They’re playing ,,Humko Humise Chura Lo.”

 

Today, i was alone again.

Empty again, dark and unimpossible to reach.

 

But all i wanted, was to hold your hands only,

without questions, belong to you, only !

 

When you was turning around, you never feel this big love ?

 

Do you hear the violin ?

They’re speaking to all unrequited loves.

Listen to them: ,,Give him a chance, dont fear,

hold his hands, take a journey together to the infinity.”

 

Do you hear the violin ?

You dont see my trembling heart in your hands ?

This life is too short for wait, oh my princess.

 

Please, dont let me alone, without you.

Please, throw a glass of water, to my burning body full of love.

 

Do you hear the violin ?

Only for us, only for our love,

for dont beginning and ending loves.

 

Before this melody play the last time,

before the birds fall in silence,

use the road from heaven to come, built only for you.

Dont walk, run to my heart, without to stop anywhere.

Come, before the sun goes down, before the moon is shining.

 

Do you hear the violin ?

If you dont hear,

anyday,

the soil who take me in,

will not hear you too,

oh my princess.

 

 

HRA

 

 

Duydum ki korkmuşsun

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Duydum ki korkmuşsun.

Benim bakmaya kıyamadığım bu gözler, korkuya bakmış.

 

Şimdi anlıyorum dün gece neden uyuyamadığımı, neden hava alamadığımı.

Korkma güzel, asla, hiç bir şeyden.

Ben rüyalarının bekçisi, gökyüzünde’ki meleğin olurum.

 

Dualarım kılıç, kalbim ateş, uykularına arkadaş olurum.

Korkma güzel, sen korkmak için değil, dünyaları mutlu etmek,

Uzaktan umutla sevilmek için doğdun.

 

Sadece seslen yeter, gözyaşlarını yere düşmeden tutar,

aşk ile, dünyanın tüm deryalarına akıtırım.

Sen üzülme, senin için ben ağlar, ben korkarım.

 

Duydum ki korkmuşsun.

Korkma güzel, bu dünya yaşamaya devam ediyor,

çünkü sen halen gülüyorsun..

 

English Version:

 

I heard you was feared

 

I heard you was feared yesterday night.

You will tell me, that these eyes, i could’nt look inside,

was feared from something ?

 

Now i understand,

why i can’t sleep yesterday, why i can’t get fresh air

and why i feel rocks in my throat.

 

Dont fear my beauty, never, from nothing.

I will always your guard in dreams, your angel in the sky.

 

My prayers a sword, my heart a fire, i will be your friend,

who surrounds you in sleep.

 

Dont fear beauty, you’re not created from god to fear,

you’re created to bring happiness in our ruthless world.

You’re created to be loved, with hopes.

 

A call is enough, i will be there,

before a drop of tear fall down on the ground, from your eyes.

I will be there, to create oceans full of love, from every drop of tears.

Dont be sad, i will cry for you, i will fear always for you.

 

I heard you was feared.

Dont fear beauty, this world continue to live,

only because you’re still smiling..

 

HRA

Ganjın etekleri / Skirts of the ganges

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Ganjın etekleri

 

Işte geldim Ganj nehri, bir genç kız gibi süzülen eteklerindeyim.

Hüzünle kaplı üzerinde bulutlar, kızıyorsun biliyorum, kaybeden aşklara.

 

Etrafını kaplayan dağlardan yükselen dumanlar eşlik ediyor,

dökülen gözyaşlarıma. Umut için diz çökmüş dua ederken,

benide içine katıp götürmeni diliyorum soğuk diyarlara.

 

Öyle soğuk olsun’ki, içeyim aşk niyetine şarabından sonsuzluğa

yemin ederken. Islat yağmur suyunla dudaklarımı, tıpkı yitip giden

sevdalarım gibi.

 

Milyonlarca insanı sevince boğduğun gibi, umudunla al götür

beni buralardan. Bitmeyen aşklara akıt içinden giderken,

aşkı unutmayacak dallara tutundur beni, kırmadan.

 

Akan o güzelim coşkun hakkına, bir damla suda olsa, yıka benide

yanımda’ki güzel hatırına, ölümsüz bir aşkla..

 

English Version:

 

Skirts of the ganges

 

Here i am ganges, sitting in your skirts.

The clouds are covered with sadness above you, i know, you are angry,

about all the lost loves.

The mountains around you, follow my tears with their fog.

When i was kneeling and pray, i wish that you take me inside,

bring me to cold places.

So cold, that i drink a wine full of love, heat my soul,

when i am swearing for the infinity. Let me feel the

raindrops on my lips, the same taste like all my lost loves.

Make me happy, like you do before to millions of people,

take me with your hopes away. When you take me in your water,

let me flow to never ending new loves.

Help me to hold the branches of love, branches who dont forget

and don’t break down.

In the name of your holy meaning, for the value of the beauty beside me,

please a last time, one drop of water is enough, with a never ending love inside.

HRA

 

 

Agrasen ki Baoli diyorlar adına / They call it Agrasen ki Baoli

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Agrasen ki Baoli diyorlar adına

 

Semalara bakmak ister insan umutla.
Seni görmek ister yanında olsanda,
hasreti içinde hisseder..

“Agrasen ki Baoli” diyorlar adına,
hüzünle kaplı merdivenlerine, duvarlarına.
Iki gez geldiğimiz bu mekana, yüzlerce
kez gelsek doyamaz gönül, ne o tepesinde doğan güneşe, nede senin
o kasıp kavuran bakışlarına..

Bir kez düştü mü kor insana bu dört duvar
arasında, geri dönüşü yoktur bu sevdanın, sığmaz asırlara..

Sen ne kadar çabalasanda burası aşktır,
hayattır, elbet bir gün o gözler tekrar buluşacaktır burada, “Agrasen ki Baoli” dedikleri bu mekanda..

 

English Version:

 

You want to look in the sky here with full of hope,

You are sitting beside me, but still want to see you,

because of the longing inside me.

 

They called it Agrasen ki Baoli,

his stairs and walls are covered with sadness.

We visited it twice, but if i could come here for hundreds of times,

it would not be enough to get peace for my heart.

Neither to the rising sun above, nor to look in your eyes.

 

If this fire fall into your heart, only for one time, there is no return

for this love, you can’t stop the fire even in centuries.

 

You can try to runaway, but here is love, here is life.

Be sure, anytime, your eyes will meet here again,

in the place, what they call ,,Agrasen ki Baoli.”

 

HRA